Since Nate's dx I have felt isolated. alone. sad. Did I already say alone? It's not everyday that you run across another family with a type 1 child that can understand what we are going through and can speak our new language. I am so thankful for the 2 families I have met and formed friendships with through this crazy roller coaster ride. I would be totally lost without my local D-mom friends Joanne and Jessica. Not to mention all of my other online D-Mom buddies that live inside of my computer!!
Still something my husband said this last weekend has stuck with me and I cannot seem to shake it. He just mentioned in passing that he had noticed I was not chatting or hanging out with any of my close friends anymore. He then asked me if I thought it was because of diabetes. Hmmmm . . . after some thought I decided that yes, it is most likely because of diabetes. He shook his head and said that he thought so too.
You see diabetes is overwhelming. It comes in uninvited and takes over your entire life. I eat, sleep, think and breathe diabetes. Oh and let me just clear up the sleep part - - - I mean the lack of sleep!!
So, here I am missing my friends but not really reaching out to them because I feel like they don't get my New Normal Life. I feel like they just do not understand this new Crazy Good Life of a Mommy Going Crazy! All of this talk about Chasing Numbers, Finding Our Balance, Being A Pancreas and Death of a Pancreas is more than they want to hear. I mean really, who wants to hear about The Life & Times of our Diabetes and Then Some and our crazy Type 1 Game or how we are always trying to Stick It To Diabetes? Do they even care about all of that?
I feel like people think I must be insane as I am screaming at My Diabetic Child . . . FORGET THE CHICKEN NUGGETS - YOU CAN'T PLAY ON THE PLAYGROUND UNTIL YOU EAT ALL YOUR FRIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do they really want to hear the Ramblings of a Tired Mom's Life with Diabetes on the Ride of our Lives with Type 1? The Bittersweet Window to My World is closed because Our Diabetic Life is like the Candy Hearts that you get on Valentine's Day each one is different from the next. This new Crazy Happy Life with our Beautiful Diabetic often feels like we are all alone on an Autoimmune Island so I am left with the people that understand me and my family best . . . the ones that live in my computer. My friends with names like The Ripley Mommy, Diabetes Sweeties, 2 Green Eyed Girls, A Sweet Grace, This is Caleb, Diary of a Diabetic Princess, and the Older Side of Life.
I truly miss my friends and need to make an effort to reach out to them. It is hard but if they are truly my friends then they will try to understand and love me and my family Diabetes and All.
My Son has Diabetes . . . Such Is Life . . . Sweet, Sassy and Sugar Free!!
Ok, so this really is a serious post but I thought I would make it fun with all of the blogs that I read. If I left anyone out, please do not take it personally - - - it's the lack of sleep thing!! I promise. That being said - it is time for a BG check and then my 2 hour nap before my next BG check.