Good Grief . . .
I decided to place Nate's pod on his bum and cover it with IV3000.  Unfortunately, the major blow out that he had after dinner required a bio-hazard suit and a site change! Good Grief!  So, lesson learned - - - Wait for bum sites until after potty training or invest in a lot more IV3000.  After the blow out I moved the pod to his arm and he is doing quite well with it there.

Getting ready to place 1st OmniPod EVER.  GO ME!

My Picnik version of the smaller OmniPod.  Nice!

I am trying to keep my posts light, short and sweet - - - there is a lot of reading to be done this week.  I don't want to slow anyone down.  This one is tough . . .

Dearest Nate,

I worry.  I hope you know that I worry about you but not for the reasons that you might think.
I know that your diabetes will never slow you down.  I can tell by your sweet, determined spirit that you will accomplish anything that you put your mind to doing.  I have no doubt that you will be just fine.

What I want you to know is that if you ever read these pages (blog posts) that I have written and become aware at how I have struggled with your diagnosis please know that it is my struggle -- not yours.  There is not one thing that you have done to cause me any sadness or pain.



I don't blame you or your diagnosis for the sadness I have felt or am feeling.  As your mom I have struggled with a bit anger and sadness but only because as a parent it is never easy to watch your child hurt in any way.  In the beginning everything was so hard - every finger prick, every shot, every site change made you cry but you are so strong and so brave you have shown me what true courage is because you always stay so amazingly strong. It cannot be easy - I know these things hurt!



I have always said that I would take your diabetes from you in a heartbeat ---- the truth be told ---- I'm not sure I would be as brave as you are. You inspire me everyday with you laughter.  You mesmerize me with your smile.  You steal my heart over and over every time you you say 'pretty, pretty please, mommy?'. I love the way you look at me even when I know I am hurting you there is always love in your eyes.

I cannot take this from you but you know I would if I could.  Diabetes will never define you but I think it is helping to make you the very special and extremely smart little guy that you are.  I don't know many 2 year old little boys that can check their own bg, read the number on the meter out loud and yell . . . "BOLUS ME, MOMMY".  Diabetes is teaching you patience, discipline and empathy ---- you have a very kind heart , a patient demeanor and the ability to do things that most parents would never dream of asking their 2-year old to do.  You are amazing. You are amazing.  You are amazing.  I will tell you a million times a day if you will listen.



You are my sunshine - you make me happy when skies are grey . . . you will never know dear, how much I love you!!



Trying hard not to screw you up ----- I love you to the moon and back again,

Mom

Shout out to Karen for our 2nd Annual Diabetes Blog Week - - - - Thank you for putting it together and than you for the wonderful topics this year!! 

This one is easy for me - probably not too original but I'm going for easy on day 1.  We have a long week ahead of D-blogging, not to mention I am way behind on my good things each day and I still need to post about the great book that I am STILL reading . . .  Not Dead Yet by Phil Southerland.

Speaking of Not Dead Yet - - - I love that title so much!  When Phil was diagnosed at 7-months his mom was pretty much told that diabetes was a death sentence.  Oh my - how far we have come.  Although I am often overwhelmed by Nate's diagnosis & all that I put into his everyday care, in my heart of hearts - soul of souls I know Nate is going to be just fine.  Have you met him?  The boy does not let ANYTHING stop him or slow him down.  Ok - if you haven't met him I'm sure by now you've seen plenty of pictures of my crazy son.  There is truly no stopping the boy.

Reading this book and the blogs of PWD has given me hope for Nate's future, understanding of the challenges we will face (as a family and the challenges he will face on his own), and the knowledge that there is nothing that Nate cannot do (ok, maybe a few things but by the time he's old enough he may just be able to do those things too).




I look up to those PWD (although most of the PWD that I know from the D-OC are much younger than I am) that are brave and courageous enough to put themselves out there and tell their stories.  I don't know if you will ever know how much you opening up your lives has meant to me and other D-Rents (D-Moms, D-Mamas, D-Dads, T3s,  MODs, DODs, whatever you want to call us).  I hope that you all know that we are reading your words, we are feeling your pains, rejoicing in your successes and cheering you on in your journey.  Thank you for sharing your ups and downs - I hope that as a parent of a type 1 son I can also make you proud by raising another brave and courageous PWD that I hope someday will share his story to help others as you have helped me.



Thank you again for all that you do -----

Love, Laura and Nate

:)