To say that I hate the above picture is a complete understatement. UGH! That photo was taken a few years ago along with some other really great photos of my littles but I never shared the one above with anyone! My kids are adorable - duh! If I could crop myself out it would be perfect!
When this photo was taken I was still spinning from both diabetes and Crohn's. Although you cannot tell it in this photo, Sophie was very, very sick and I believe we ended up in the hospital for a week just a few days after this was taken! I knew the photo shoot was coming up and it was all I could do to get clothes picked out for the minis. I didn't even give myself a 2nd thought. I remember the morning so clearly getting everyone ready and then thinking ---- what the hell am I going to wear? Do I even own makeup anymore? Do any of my clothes even fit right now?
The answers were:
Who the hell knows!
Not much makeup!
Nope, nothing fits!
I knew I didn't feel comfortable with my looks that day but it wasn't until we got the proofs back that I really took a look at myself and wondered who I had become. Since the birth of Ms. Emma Leigh my weight had gone up and down -- that will happen when you are pregnant every 2 years or so!
I'll add a few cute photos of Emma here because she rarely gets any FaceTime on HWHAP:
Ok, back to my point . . . had I gotten to that yet? I started looking at old pictures and got totally distracted!
This post is supposed to be about me. So, my weight has fluctuated a lot since having kiddos but I had gotten down to a comfortable size 6 after I lost the Nate weight. I was totally happy at a 6.
Until . . . . dun dun dun . . . Nate was diagnosed. You all know how hard that was blah blah blah -- I've blogged that to death. Then Sophie was diagnosed with Crohn's and blah blah blah it was hard again. My point being after those 2 major life changing events I totally lost myself. I no longer cared. I gave up on me. I was just trying to survive the day to day of raising 3 kids along with diabetes and Crohn's in the mix. I think my weight went up to an 8 and then a 10 again which isn't a huge deal to some but I am 5'2" and fluctuated between a size 2 and 4 before I had Emma.
Then last summer I lost a lot of weight due to stress and other factors that are not bloggable but then as soon as I got happy again I started gaining and gaining and before I knew it I had yo-yo'd back up!
To recap --- I was needing a size 8 when I started, my goal was size 4 and now I am wearing a size 2. Being the shortie that I am it's not too small or to thin. I still carry some meat in my butt and thighs but that is just how I am built.
Would love to try it, but it's kinda expensive. But, at the same time, I am soooo tired of being "fluffy". :) I never had trouble losing weight after any of my babies, but Henry (my 4th) did a number on me and I can't lose the weight! How long would I need to take the Accelerator pill? Is it something I take until I get down to my desired weight? Does the weight stay off, or would I have to keep buying the drink? I didn't see any "I kept the weight off" testimonials, but maybe I missed them. Anyway, I am interested, just trying to work out the details.
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I AM a wife.
I AM the mom of 3 wonderful children.
I AM my son's pancreas.
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